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He wrote a 1300 word letter to me in reply to my letters to him asking for advice. is that lengthy or what...? i haven't read it--it's so long i don't even feel like reading it. or maybe i'm so afraid to discover criticism and statements in his letter that i could have so easily given myself. it's funny how i hoped for his response and now, i'm so afraid of it. condemn me.
i thought about the problems in my life. but i didnt really know what to think of them. i was too afraid to face them. but one thing i'm sure. HE is one of the problems. he was. and he still is.
And this is my reply.
No I will NOT condemn you, and I have already told you what I think of his letter, so I’ll just say it again: Downright insensitive. On the phone you kept saying things like oh, it didn’t affect you that badly, sometimes people need a bit of shock to jarr them out of depression, guys are generally less aware about the power of their words etc. etc. etc… Now. I don’t honestly know if you REALLY feel that way. What really complicates things is YOU DID LIKE HIM, in some way YOU STILL DO, and I’ll bet a whole package of my Oreos that on some level it definitely HURT. I don’t know the guy, so I can’t comment too much on him or tell you that he probably wrote that in the fit of a bad mood (which it does sound like he did), so if you think that’s the way brothers should act towards each other, that’s fine with me. What I have to say is, I know you and Sean talk to each other like that too, but Sean has been your brother much longer that /he/ has, and when you talk to him like that you probably know beforehand that HE CAN TAKE IT. Does kx appreciate being your brother? I’m not very sure about that. But again, as I said, I don’t know the guy. You will have to judge that for yourself.
RGS taught us all about a self-respecting spirit. Let’s show a little bit of that. Do you really want him in your life? Despite all that you’ve said, do you still like him, really? I’ve said it once, and I’ll say it again now: If I were you, I’d kick his ass to the moon. You decide. You know I’ll still be behind you.
He wrote a 1300 word letter to me in reply to my letters to him asking for advice. is that lengthy or what...? i haven't read it--it's so long i don't even feel like reading it. or maybe i'm so afraid to discover criticism and statements in his letter that i could have so easily given myself. it's funny how i hoped for his response and now, i'm so afraid of it. condemn me.
i thought about the problems in my life. but i didnt really know what to think of them. i was too afraid to face them. but one thing i'm sure. HE is one of the problems. he was. and he still is.
And this is my reply.
No I will NOT condemn you, and I have already told you what I think of his letter, so I’ll just say it again: Downright insensitive. On the phone you kept saying things like oh, it didn’t affect you that badly, sometimes people need a bit of shock to jarr them out of depression, guys are generally less aware about the power of their words etc. etc. etc… Now. I don’t honestly know if you REALLY feel that way. What really complicates things is YOU DID LIKE HIM, in some way YOU STILL DO, and I’ll bet a whole package of my Oreos that on some level it definitely HURT. I don’t know the guy, so I can’t comment too much on him or tell you that he probably wrote that in the fit of a bad mood (which it does sound like he did), so if you think that’s the way brothers should act towards each other, that’s fine with me. What I have to say is, I know you and Sean talk to each other like that too, but Sean has been your brother much longer that /he/ has, and when you talk to him like that you probably know beforehand that HE CAN TAKE IT. Does kx appreciate being your brother? I’m not very sure about that. But again, as I said, I don’t know the guy. You will have to judge that for yourself.
RGS taught us all about a self-respecting spirit. Let’s show a little bit of that. Do you really want him in your life? Despite all that you’ve said, do you still like him, really? I’ve said it once, and I’ll say it again now: If I were you, I’d kick his ass to the moon. You decide. You know I’ll still be behind you.
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