With some people solitariness is an escape not from others but from themselves. For they see in the eyes of others only a reflection of themselves.
~Eric Hoffer

Life has been sailing pretty smoothly, if I ignore all that stuff at the back of my head and what. What? What stuff? Well, for one I now have to conduct a lesson on Margaret Atwood. For S Lit. Five pairs of eyes on me for like three hours, which can sound positive (thank God for small favours, like I told Mi'er) or negative depending on which way I look at it. I nearly flipped when I read Julian Lim's e-mail to us all last night.

Still, at least it's a subject that I like (plus one), and after all I DID make that vow. (Plus two.) Which I'll have to keep to, no excuses now. At least it's not twenty eight people, or forty-four, or anything scary like that. (Plus three.)

After the shock it's actually possible to look forward to it, to a time when finally I will know I CAN and I ALWAYS WILL be able to do something like that... something that will send my fears flying to outer space forevermore. Let's not think about the way I'll feel, IF (I nearly typed "WHEN") I screw it up.

Positive mentality, positive mentality, positive mentality. Right.

Speaking of positivity, I went out to Far East Plaza recently (got a nice new watch that I'm decorating/ mutilating myself, depending on how you look at it) and had this perfectly HUGE double-scoop ice-cream cone. All by myself. When I licked it it came right up to my nose. I think the girl at the counter thought I was on drugs or something, I had this huge, dazed, goopy grin on my face... ^_^