Just spoke to Janise. We had a great relevation session (one hour and eighteen minutes plus fifty-seven seconds) which makes me think I can lift the censor completely now... but to be on the safe side, just another week more will do. ^_^ It was so good -- SO GOOD -- to know that someone fell into the exact same trap that I did, that someone got out of it by actually getting to KNOW him, which I don't. I'm not alone after all. I felt really really STUPID at first, when I learned things about him... things he's done, how immature he usually is, what other people really think about him and I think: This is the god I have been worshipping?

My first reaction was to think seriously about migrating to a distant galaxy.

Then I started laughing.

He has been telling his friends about me. I know this much. When I first discovered it I wanted to kick his ass somewhere between Mars and Jupiter, and that feeling has revived. Especially when I add that to something horrible that happened yesterday, which was what influenced my dream, really.

I know Janise doesn't read this blog, but I want to put this here anyway.

THANK YOU.