Blew up at my mom this morning; went to school crying all the way from 6 to 10am. I have never cried so long in my life and the amazing thing is, I don't think I'm even done yet. It must be some kind of personal record.
What cheered me up was Lit S, as usual. We were going through last year's S paper exam for Practical Criticism and had to compare and contrast two "Crow" poems. Ms Lim asked me what I thought of the phrase "a blown bird" (in the WIND), expecting something on the theme of power... and feeling rather reckless I said, "Well, actually I was thinking of something really dirty." Suddenly none of us at the table could speak any longer... we were laughing too hard. ^_^
I love our 5-person-and-a-teacher Lit S class. We all have our little personalities... with Ms Lim, we've labelled each other: I'm the prose-phobic, Ailin's the poetry-phobic. With Ms Heng, I'm the idealist, Sijia's the resident cynic, Ms Heng calls herself the romantic. I like us all very much, together. And I seldom feel such connection to people; they may not know very much of me, but I like the way we just get together and have fun, we can talk about so many things that I wouldn't be able to discuss with other people! Try talking to just anyone about Shakespeare or Atwood. They'd say I was showing off; they don't understand that I really do enjoy it. Best of all, they're not subject to any kind of 'obligation' that I tend to 'expect' my usual class friends to do: I don't expect them to comfort me when I'm down, or listen to me grouch about anything (besides S Lit), or go to Prom with me. Friendship without strings - I like it much better this way. In RGS Art Club that connection was the same way.
It's not a connection that I can have with, say, Joanna or Hanjie; we are friends in class, but we belong to different worlds.
Sometimes I think we're just together for the sake of being together.
What cheered me up was Lit S, as usual. We were going through last year's S paper exam for Practical Criticism and had to compare and contrast two "Crow" poems. Ms Lim asked me what I thought of the phrase "a blown bird" (in the WIND), expecting something on the theme of power... and feeling rather reckless I said, "Well, actually I was thinking of something really dirty." Suddenly none of us at the table could speak any longer... we were laughing too hard. ^_^
I love our 5-person-and-a-teacher Lit S class. We all have our little personalities... with Ms Lim, we've labelled each other: I'm the prose-phobic, Ailin's the poetry-phobic. With Ms Heng, I'm the idealist, Sijia's the resident cynic, Ms Heng calls herself the romantic. I like us all very much, together. And I seldom feel such connection to people; they may not know very much of me, but I like the way we just get together and have fun, we can talk about so many things that I wouldn't be able to discuss with other people! Try talking to just anyone about Shakespeare or Atwood. They'd say I was showing off; they don't understand that I really do enjoy it. Best of all, they're not subject to any kind of 'obligation' that I tend to 'expect' my usual class friends to do: I don't expect them to comfort me when I'm down, or listen to me grouch about anything (besides S Lit), or go to Prom with me. Friendship without strings - I like it much better this way. In RGS Art Club that connection was the same way.
It's not a connection that I can have with, say, Joanna or Hanjie; we are friends in class, but we belong to different worlds.
Sometimes I think we're just together for the sake of being together.
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10:54 PM
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