... Something very interesting: The "lengthy conversations in [my] imagination" (see below) mostly involve some me screaming or smashing or otherwise cutting and destroying things (including myself - I seem to favour large knives and guns). Now where did all my anger come from? Upon further reflection it seems that I am constantly angry... but at who? Or what?
Mi'er introduced an idea to me yesterday which I find extremely appealing: destruction for the sake of art. E.g. smashing a mirror or photo frame and sketching it... what I really like about this is you get to destroy something in order to create it in another form. I wonder if it works for the soul, like a kind of psychic burning or purging. (I wonder if you know what I'm talking about, but I think Sylvia Plath probably would understand.)
I would really like to destroy something right now, anything, just smash or hurl or rip and let fly... without having to apologise or pay for it afterwards.
Personal Growth Recommendations for Enneagram Type Fours
(Putting this down so as to remember it permanently)
Avoid putting off things until you are "in the right mood." Commit yourself to productive, meaningful work that will contribute to your good and that of others, no matter how small the contribution may be. Working consistently in the real world will create a context in which you can discover yourself and your talents. (Actually, you are happiest when you are working—that is, activating your potentials and realizing yourself. You will not "find yourself" in a vacuum or while waiting for inspiration to strike, so connect—and stay connected—with the real world.
Self-esteem and self-confidence will develop only from having positive experiences, whether or not you believe that you are ready to have them. Therefore, put yourself in the way of good. You may never feel that you are ready to take on a challenge of some sort, that you always need more time. (Fours typically never feel that they are sufficiently "together," but they must nevertheless have the courage to stop putting off their lives.) Even if you start small, commit yourself to doing something that will bring out the best in you.
Avoid lengthy conversations in your imagination (AACK!!! How did they find out?)particularly if they are negative, resentful, or even excessively romantic. These conversations are essentially unreal and at best only rehearsals for action—although, as you know, you almost never say or do what you imagine you will. Instead of spending time imagining your life and relationships, begin to live them.
Mi'er introduced an idea to me yesterday which I find extremely appealing: destruction for the sake of art. E.g. smashing a mirror or photo frame and sketching it... what I really like about this is you get to destroy something in order to create it in another form. I wonder if it works for the soul, like a kind of psychic burning or purging. (I wonder if you know what I'm talking about, but I think Sylvia Plath probably would understand.)
I would really like to destroy something right now, anything, just smash or hurl or rip and let fly... without having to apologise or pay for it afterwards.
Personal Growth Recommendations for Enneagram Type Fours
(Putting this down so as to remember it permanently)
Avoid putting off things until you are "in the right mood." Commit yourself to productive, meaningful work that will contribute to your good and that of others, no matter how small the contribution may be. Working consistently in the real world will create a context in which you can discover yourself and your talents. (Actually, you are happiest when you are working—that is, activating your potentials and realizing yourself. You will not "find yourself" in a vacuum or while waiting for inspiration to strike, so connect—and stay connected—with the real world.
Self-esteem and self-confidence will develop only from having positive experiences, whether or not you believe that you are ready to have them. Therefore, put yourself in the way of good. You may never feel that you are ready to take on a challenge of some sort, that you always need more time. (Fours typically never feel that they are sufficiently "together," but they must nevertheless have the courage to stop putting off their lives.) Even if you start small, commit yourself to doing something that will bring out the best in you.
Avoid lengthy conversations in your imagination (AACK!!! How did they find out?)particularly if they are negative, resentful, or even excessively romantic. These conversations are essentially unreal and at best only rehearsals for action—although, as you know, you almost never say or do what you imagine you will. Instead of spending time imagining your life and relationships, begin to live them.
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